almost a LOVE letter...

My everdearest Irene,

By the time you open this, you'll be moments away from walking down the aisle. I will say a prayer for you that you may find meaning in what you're about to do.

Sometimes I wonder why we ever met. Is it only for me to find fleeting happiness but experience eternal pain? Is it only for us to find a true love but then lose it again? Or is it because there's a bigger plan for the two of us?

I hope that you have experienced true happiness with me. I have done everything humanly possible to love you. And today, as you make your vows . . . I make my own vow to YOU!

I will love you for the rest of my life. I loved you from the first time I laid eyes on you, to the time we spent together, up to the final moments of your single life. But more importantly, I will love you until the life in me is gone and until we are together again.

Do not worry about me! I will be happy for you. I have enough memories of us to last me a lifetime. Always remember though that in my heart, in my mind and in my soul, YOU WILL ALWAYS

. . . AND THE WONDERFUL THINGS YOU DO!

BE MINE . . . . AND MINE ALONE, and I WILL ALWAYS BE YOURS AND YOURS ALONE!

I LOVE YOU FOREVER, I LOVE YOU FOR ALWAYS. AS LONG AS I'M LIVING MY TWEETIE YOU'LL BE!"2

Eternally yours,
NOLI

have to defy gravity...

no reason of fighting back…

Vertical Horizon. love them.

thinking and realizing things OUT LOUD.

this coming sem.. and for the rest of my life.. I SHOULD STOP RANTING.. do what should be done and be productive.MAKE use OF the "i think" weaknesses to be stronger AND BE BETTER (OR THE BEST). i'm tired of being just "average"... to fail. to cry. to be depressed. to be stressed.
I never stopped dreaming of the future, of my future. But, I realized that its all that I do.. Neglecting the present which bars myself from those dreams. I should've gotten things right if I hadn't focused my attention that every task is hard and I can't do it (but still ending doing it). However, in the process of finishing the task, my goal was to finish it rather than finishing with the result of feeling TRULY SATISFIED, fulfilled, and happy with my work.
I'm tired of being depressed, of feeling stressed. In the end, I realize that its all my fault. It's not that the exams are hard, the lessons or reading materials are hard to read and understand. professors embodying the high level of toxicity and I, ending up blaming them for getting average to "just passing" grades. My professor was right, quoting one of Marx's books. If you see a problem, it means you see also see a solution. Well, maybe the solution was just hard for me or for most of us to accept and to admit because of the possibility of giving up things that provides the temporary immunity from reality. We may have unique views on what is reality. what is true to reality is that it will always have good and bad.. balancing everything out. having the "end product" of learning and becoming a better person for a better world.
NOW, I should STOP SAYING that its GOING TO BE hard.

BUT RATHER, i should say, I AM READY TO ACCEPT THE CHALLENGE.

"POTAAAAAAAAAA!!! WATDAFAAAAAAAAAAAAAACCCCKKKKK!" (JEN,2009) XD

A POEM FOR MYSLEF

THE LIFE I LIVE
THE LIFE I GIVE
THE LOVE I HAVE
THE LOVE HAS LEFT
I AM NOW SO SCARED
I FEAR TO HURT
I FEAR TO BE
BECOMING ME
IS SOMETHING YOU SHOULD NOT BE
I AM SELFISH
I AM FOOLISH
NOWHERE WILL IT TAKE ME
OR MAYBE JUST UNCERTAIN
OR UNLUCKY
I CARE FOR LIFE
I CARE FOR PEOPLE
I WANT TO BE BRAVE
I'LL FACE MISERY AND SCRUTINY
FROM ALL THE PEOPLE ALL EYES ON ME
SHOULD I GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT

day dream

I have a lot of things inside my head right now. There is this issue which I do not know how I can even resolve it. My confidence is at its lowest point. I'm with this crowd of geniuses but I feel left out for not being, simply, like them... I try to study... I try so hard to step out of my shell and brave enough to work harder, study harder.
I'm lost.
I know I want something.. but I don't know what it is... what they are..
There is just this feeling inside me, screaming for freedom...
But I'm afraid.
Sorry for this EMO post... don't worry... no tear will slide down my eyes and down to my cheeks...

emo day

never expected that i would see that sweet and bubbly person cry we are here for you.. you know who you are.. lesson learned.. never expect to much especially if there is no commitment at all lesson to be taught c'mon guys. wag paasa na magsasabi na you value a person so much and then the next day, just friends na lang.. DON'T GIVE MIX SIGNALS. KAHIT NA WALANG COMMITMENT, WAG PAASA. (gago!) advice: get yourself busy study harder focus on achieving your acad goals have clean fun with your true and trusted friends cry on their shoulders if you can't take it anymore smile after and be happy for the experience (parang rollercoster na lang)

RVC INDUCTION

yes.. it is..

show off your uber cute self.. hehehehe

on saturday.. yes this NOVEMBER 3, 2008, 8am, {don't be late!}...

sa UPM po ang induction (saan pa nga ba??)

the search is on for the new faces of RVC!!! harharhar!!!!

whole day po ito.. hope to see you there.. announce ko na lang kung saan room..

before i forget..

REGISTRATION VOLUNTEER CORPS.

"RVC"

sila yung mga students na volunteers tuwing registration or better known as ENROLLMENT..

mas makikilala niyo sila kapag pumunta kayo sa induction sa monday

we don't bite.. mabait kami.. hehehehehe...

promise.. masaya ito!!!

kita kitz!! pede na sumali mga freshies!!!!